My Inspiration
The lovely lass up there in the corner is my Baileykins, or Bailey, or Bails, and she's the reason you're reading stories from me now. There are more pictures at the bottom of the page, but first, a little more about her, how we met, and the role she played in inspiring me.
We met by pure chance on the internet. A friend of mine sent me a link to a website called Sexside one night while I was online. I looked at it, rolled my eyes, and sent back a message that said, "Porn? Please..." He promptly sent me back a message that said "No, seriously! It's a laugh riot making fun of the desperate idiots in there!"
I more or less ignored that link until the next evening, when I was bored out of my mind. With nothing else to do, I clicked it. My friend was right. I spent some time feeling out the crowd and the admins ( chat "bouncers" ) first, but soon enough, I'd started making friends with regular chatters and having a ball making fun of the "chatmonkeys", as we called them, who spent all their time begging to see skin.
It was quite a bit longer before I really started interacting with the models, even though I frequently got LOL comments and such from them when I was ripping apart some annoying chatmonkey. Most often, I stayed quiet while the model was live, and only jumped into the game when she was in a private show. That all changed one day when I was typing out the lyrics to a Monty Python song to pass the time ( "Bright Side of Life" ) while the model was in private, and she came back to free chat in the middle of it.
My mouth dropped wide open and my eyes bugged out of my head when this gorgeous, sexy redhead typed the next line of the song. She liked Python! I was soon to discover that she not only like them - she loved them!
After that, I was on chat even more often - at least when Bailey was online. We grew even closer, talking all the time as I ripped up any chatmonkey that annoyed her with biting commentary, and she loved the dark humor.
One day, an especially nasty chatmonkey managed to get to her, and she went off-camera because she was so upset. I went into a rage and role-played chopping the guy's head off while reeling from his unwashed stench ala Highlander. All the while, I was contacting one of the site admins, who kicked the guy off chat just as I 'beheaded' him. Bailey gave me a LOL, but stayed off camera.
I talked to her for a while... I have no memory of what I said, but it did the trick. Shortly thereafter, a smiling and very grateful Bailey returned to the screen, ready to continue with her day of driving men crazy with her body while she made me smile with her banter. I'd become her White Knight, dispatching any miscreant who dared to give the slightest offense.
Everything was perfect for a while, until she ran afoul of the backbiting between models. Bailey always spoke her mind, and a couple of other models had it in for her. They managed to get her fired. I was devastated when I learned the news on chat.
Then, one of the other chatters I was friends with said that she wanted to talk to me on messenger. He had her off-cam information, and we were right back to chatting all the time - all hours of the day and night.
To make an already long story short, we both realized that we were falling in love. Chat moved to phone calls and outrageous phone bills. Then, she made plans to come visit me. It was only going to be a week, but she ended up going back to Vegas just long enough to get her things, and moved in with me.
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Needless to say, considering her occupation was to pose nude and get herself off for paying customers on cam, she was very sexually liberated, and very much Bi. Not "Oh look, I kissed a girl! Tee Hee!" Bi, but noticing the hot girls in the mall even before I did Bi. If you check out the "Lynn and Lee" series I've written as LesLumens, there are a few true tales there of sexual adventures ( embellished only a little for good prose ) that give you an idea of the eye-opening fun we had. And that was on top of being with someone I adored simply spending time with.
That absolutely influenced what would become my writing in time. I had a lot more real and varied experiences to work with, as opposed to testosterone-fueled fantasy.
What really got me started writing was when we had to be apart for a while. I'd often wrote her 'stories' on chat or told them to her in what was really just phone or cyber-sex, designed to get her off. I thought I'd take it a step further, and try to write a real story, using my D&D world that she was interested in anyway. Using a single line from the back of Devan Ardane's character sheet, I centered the story on her unnamed sister, Danica
Danica is Bailey. If you look at the pics at the bottom of the page, you know exactly how I envision her when I'm writing. The character was written to be about her, her fantasies and fetishes, and set in my gaming world.
She loved the story, and couldn't get enough of it. I just kept cranking out new chapters, staying connected to her with my writing when we couldn't be physically together. When she came home, I just kept writing the story for her, as I enjoyed it as much as she did.
Over time, she started working on me, encouraging me to share the story with others so they could enjoy it as much as she did. I hesitated at first, but she wore me down. She was good at making me push my boundaries. One fateful day, I signed up for Literotica, and years later, here we are. The feedback was addictive, and I couldn't get enough once I started.
You only need to look at the dates on my submission lists to see what happened to me when she passed away in February of 2008, on the day SOTM 12 came out. I was devastated, and it took me quite a while to even partially recover. You never really recover from the loss of a spouse. Trust me on that. I hope that this helps explain why it takes me a while to get out new stories sometimes - especially new chapters in SOTM. There are times when bringing her to life in my head is a wonderful thing, and other times, it's extremely painful.
No matter what, the story will be finished, because it's in her memory, and still for her as much as for anyone else.
You can see our shared interests in my other work as well. We had the same sense of humor, a lot of the same interests, and often brought each other around to anything we didn't share. We were two of a kind, so getting to know me shows you her - except a far more gorgeous and sexy version.
Pictures
Click the thumbnail to see the pic in a lightbox overlay. If it doesn't work for you, you can click the text description to open the pic in a new window. She's the one who gave a lot of the pics the filenames, so there's another look into her personality. I'm starting with just a few pics for now, but I'll probably add many more as time goes on.
The very first private pic from home she sent me. That smile just makes me melt.
Another of the very first pics she sent me from her home webcam. So beautiful that all I could do was stare.
Another of the early, private pics she sent me from before we met in person. Blowing kisses was a common thing amongst us in chat.
Another early, private pic. This one is her gorgeous smile, a touch of her fun nature, and a little come-and-get-me.
That wink can turn your knees to jelly, while turning other things to stone.
Sooooo sexy!